I'm BORED.

Beware - angst ahead!

I want to go to a furmeet or something. Or glomp somebody.
Or talk about random weird stuff.

But I can't, basically.

Because
a. I can't get to a furmeet/Parent likely wouldn't allow it/I'm so bad at peoplethings.
b. There is nobody around who would be fun to glomp.
c. I like talking in RL about random weird stuff. Messenger won't cover it.

Being a Furry is being slightly fustrating. Not because I don't ~enjoy~ being a Furry, but that it's a risk socially. And when you have Aspeger's (as if things aren't difficult enough) a social risk is all you need.
I did mean what I deleted, Dan. Sorry. I tend to delete anything that feels risky. (Arti can, after all. You forget the connotations are different with me being a furry. And you've just got Your Brain anyway. I must take that into consideration!)

I reaaaaly don't understand myself some days.
I'm cryptic, too normal to be evidently different, too different to be considered normal.
I tend to blame it on the Asperger's, but I'm not sure how much is.
I dunno if work experience will work for me. I'm not going to -have- a job in that department in the end.
I need money. I have an allowance and although £20 a month is nice, I wouldn't mind earning some extra. *sigh* I neeed a job. But what as? That's the question, isn't it?

An artist? Well, exactly where do I get commissions. It's not as if I have paypal.
If I DID get a new poster for the school office...(wherever I'm going to aquire a well-worded, eye-catching poster from..) I have commissions already, NEITHER of which are finished/started and need to be.
I can't get the fairy pic (commish from a school TA's daughter) done until I get the pose right. Can't get the Krystal commish done 'till I get the fairy commish done.

Eek.

I also am getting highly annoyed at my being 15. I WANT TO BE 16 ALREADY. Then I can go on the UKfur forums...go to conventions...being 15 is boring, frankly.

I ALSO also want art lessons. Nay. NEED art lessons.

I shall now leave you to talk to my peoples (DnaMewtwo, sherbet-duck etc.) and just be generally less angsty in order to be sociable.

so yeah. G'bye for naow.

Miazkye.